Okay so, it has been about 3 weeks since I have been back home. I was in the Atlanta area receiving treatment for anxiety and depression.
One thing that I have realized is that life is short and it is crazy. I have 4 kids and it may get different but I am not sure if it will ever get less crazy. It will just change from one stage to another. One carpool line to three. One after school activity to four. And I am supposed to cherish these times.
God cares about us and our problems and worries no matter how trivial we may think they may seem to the God of the universe. He wants us to give them all to Him.
I want to enjoy the laughter of my children and even the cries of my children because they are there and I have been blessed with them. But I know that it is impossible to do that without Christ empowering me to make it through each temper tantrum and shortened nap and battle over wardrobe choice.
I am helpless without Christ.
I am starting to blog again as a method of stress relieve and as a pursuit of my true passion of writing. Not really focusing as much on the grammar as the content and what is on my mind that particular day. I hope that I can be more faithful than the last attempt because as you should know -- I have 4 kids aged 8, 4, and 2 year old twins. To say my life is hectic would be an understatement. I decided to make a schedule just so I would know when to go to the bathroom.
I hear them tearing up the other end of the house now but it feels so good to sit here with a cup of coffee and pour my heart into a computer. So, I guess I will clean up the aftermath in a little bit. Perhaps, when they are sleeping and I should be. Isn't that what every good mom does anyways?
Anyhow, I hope that this blog will inspire me to write my story the real one I want to write about a mother of 2 who was 29 weeks pregnant with twins when she found a lump the size of a golf ball. That's the story I want to write and let everyone know how it all ends and what all happens along the way.
Most of you know the story, but I feel there is so much more to it. I'll pray about that one. But that is the goal.
But for now, I'll go put the kids to bed and pick up the house and finish a cold cup of coffee at some point this evening. So so long for now my friends.
God bless and love to all, Connie
